Today, I believe, I was given a prophetic word of knowledge. Of coarse I do not know for sure, for when we minister it is by faith:
Galatians 3:5 5 Then He supplying the Spirit to you and working powerful works in you, is it by works of the law, or by hearing of faith?
So I am coming to you by faith. I do have a comparison though, on Oct. 5, 2001, as I was listening to the radio, I heard that Bob Stevens of American Media in Florida died of anthrax. This was before we knew there was an anthrax attack. It was believed at the time he got it from his sportsman activities in a swamp or marsh naturally. When he died and it was announced on the radio, I got a word from God saying, “this is an attack”. I emailed a handful of people that night, I remember 2 witnesses that got that email: Dick Peterson and Bruce DeLay. Shortly after this due to an FBI investigation we learned it was indeed an attack.
Today something similar occurred. As I was leaving work, I put on my MP3 player with headphones and turned on the radio, and was listening to the Sean Hannity radio show, and he was playing sound clips from today’s news. The clip that triggered this “word” today was about the reviewing origins of Russia probe, to see if there was a political and illegal beginning of this accusation against President Trump. See here for more:
When I heard this news, I immediately began to weep, and was hurt in my heart, and got the “word”: “It is this that will begin/cause Civil war”.
Now I have believed prophetically America would have a civil war, or at the least a strong civil unrest in it’s end days. I have had no prophecy personally on this, although I have read/listened/watched others such a these:
America – A. A. Allen’s Vision:
Henry Gruver Russian Invasion of America:
AMERICA WILL BURN – Dumitru Duduman:
AMERICA, THE FALLING STAR – Dumitru Duduman:
CHINA AND RUSSIA STRIKE – Dumitru Duduman:
THE BEAST STRIKES – Dumitru Duduman:
A PROPHECY RECEIVED BY BROTHER DUDUMAN:
I strongly believe America must fall because of it’s not helping Israel during the Ezek 38 war, and because an America existence would fight an anti-christ One World Order.
But we also know from scripture that once the Tribulation begins there will be war, and the desire for men to kill each other:
Rev 6:3 And when He had opened the second seal…
4 …a red horse, went out. And power was given to him sitting on it, to take peace from the earth, and that they should kill one another. And there was given to him a great sword.
3 …And what shall be the sign of Your coming, and of the end of the world?
6 And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars…
7 For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom…
10 And then many will be offended, and will betray one another, and will hate one another.
12 And because lawlessness will be increased, the love of many will grow cold.
I believe the lawlessness after the rapture goes hand in hand with the deception that will hit the Earth at the same time:
2 Thessalonians 2
8 And then the lawless one will be revealed…
9 whose coming is according to the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders,
10 and with all deceit of unrighteousness in those who perish, because they did not receive the love of the truth, so that they might be saved.
11 And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie,
12 so that all those who do not believe the truth, but delight in unrighteousness, might be condemned.
Once the rapture takes place, the salt will be gone. Lawlessness, hatred, anger, deception will grow rampant. Our united nation will not be able to stay united. We already see great amounts of anger and hatred in America between the two sides. Without the salt, chaos will hit. Those who sought to take down Trump will now be under the light, and will resist and may even coup. I could see Right Wing militia’s hunt down and kill the democrats who wanted to take out trump, and even do it through illegal means in return.
It is my belief that the “powers that be”, whether in the natural or the spiritual, I don’t know, are planning this civil war, but again I have no evidence nor word from God on this.
I am guessing here, I do not know how it will go down. But if God has indeed told me that “this” movement within our government will cause or bring about Civil war, I believe God. Now whether or not it was God, we will see.
Added, here is the sound clip which triggered this:
My thoughts after the weeping, and the “word”, was people should register as Independents, in preparation. I may do this, but I have my ticket punched so I don’t need to worry, I hope to be out of here. But for those who don’t have their tickets ready, and read this afterwards, becoming an independent may be a word of wisdom. But for those reading this and don’t have their ticket punched, you need to be Born Again. If you do so, you will be ready for the rapture.
How do you do this? Start with a prayer. Something like this:
I come to you, to offer my life, not only do I believe in You; in your crucifixion, and your resurrection; but I believe I died with you on the cross. My sin has been paid for, and I also have the resurrected life in me. I offer myself to you, to let You live through me. I will submit to your Holy Spirit to lead me into truth and away from sin. Lord, You are my Shepherd, and I will trust you to lead me to life eternal. Today, I not only call you Savior, but I make You Lord of my life.
In your Holy name I pray,
For more information about preparing for the rapture read my page here:
Here’s a different link covering this news:
In my previous post, I was excited about the video shared with me called: Two Types of Sin: One Leads to Death, and thought it had a great revelation. But when talking to my son last night, he reminded me about the Blaspheme of the Holy Spirit. And when he did, all the teachings I did on that rushed back to me.
The video misses a very important point. The work of the Cross. I discuss in detail that universalists found an interesting point, but got it wrong, that everyone’s sins are paid for by Jesus, on my webpage here:
In that page I share these scriptures that show Jesus died for all:
18: Therefore as by the offence of one judgment came upon all men to condemnation; even so by the righteousness of one the free gift came upon all men unto justification of life.
19: For as by one man’s disobedience many were made sinners, so by the obedience of one shall many be made righteous.
1 Cor 15:
22: For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.
27: For he hath put all things under his feet. But when he saith all things are put under him, it is manifest that he is excepted, which did put all things under him.
28: And when all things shall be subdued unto him, then shall the Son also himself be subject unto him that put all things under him, that God may be all in all.
19: For it pleased the Father that in him should all fulness dwell;
20: And, having made peace through the blood of his cross, by him to reconcile all things unto himself; by him, I say, whether they be things in earth, or things in heaven.
and several others as well, please check out the link!
So Jesus died for everyone’s sins, those who believe and those who don’t believe, because of this:
Rom 5:8 But God commends His love toward us in that while we were yet sinners Christ died for us.
We don’t have to repent before our sins are paid for! And I am not denouncing repentance, because I am not, but I am looking at the order of things to get to the point of what sins leads to death.
Our sins are paid for, Jesus died for our sins. So, are there sins He did not pay for, are there sins that are not for given? Yes, and I almost forgot this, and even taught it.
I discuss these issues in more detail here:
Jesus warned us there was an unpardonable sin.
31: Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men.
32: And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come.
28: Verily I say unto you, All sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men, and blasphemies wherewith soever they shall blaspheme:
29: But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost hath never forgiveness, but is in danger of eternal damnation
It is one of the jobs of the Holy Spirit to convict people of sin and bring them to Christ:
John 16:8 And when that One comes, He will convict the world concerning sin, and concerning righteousness, and concerning judgment.
9 Concerning sin, because they do not believe on Me;
John 16:14 He will glorify Me, for He will receive of Mine and will announce it to you.
John 15:26 And when the Comforter has come, whom I will send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who proceeds from the Father, He shall testify of Me.
So if an unbeliever continues to not believe in Christ and disallows the Holy Spirit to convict him, he will not be saved. His sins are forgiven, but his sin of rejecting God is not. He will remain in debt to God, for this sin.
So I was wrong to endorse that video, there is a truth to it, but it isn’t a whole truth. The people who have unrepentant sin will suffer death and judgment, but not for those sins, but for rejecting the work of God.
I have to thank my son for reminding me of this truth, which I have preached before!
This post is no longer relevant nor true. I have since made a correction found here:
There is a movement, of sorts within the church, where people are denouncing repentance. Believing that simple faith (belief) in Christ and His work on the cross saves them and that repentance is not needed, and even frowned upon as it takes away the grace and work of the Grace of Christ.
I have heard most of this through Jerry Toney, as many of them attack him because he speaks often on repentance. It is my belief both are wrong as he speaks against it to much, but can understand the swing to the other side because of the Prophetic Voice. Yes, I believe Jerry has a prophetic ministry, but he is a harsh man and needs more grace in his life.
Anyways, my dear brother, Christopher Maskey, from the Youtube channel: Last Call To Calvary, sent me a video to check out. I am a little slow, as he sent me this a couple weeks ago, but it’s title interested me as I always wanted to study the topic: Two Types of Sin: One Leads to Death.
The video is awesome. I would agree with it somewhere between 90%-95%, and it deals with this subject. The brother, Michael, who runs the On Point Preparedness YouTube channel and website, made this video. I may have heard of this channel, but don’t think I ever watched anything from it before. I will be following it, and checking out more of his content soon.
I have some comments on the video, but ask you watch it. If you insist on watching only some of it, or don’t have the time, you can skip the 1st 3 minutes or so, as he warms up the subject, but I already have, and can skip the last 10 minutes or so as he summarizes. Also I have learned to watch everything at 125% speed on Youtube when it comes to teachings and such. I recommend doing this by clicking on the “gear” setting button, in the lower right hand corner and changing the speed. Sometimes I even change it to 150% speed. Anyways here it is:
I think the revelation in this video is amazing. This brother really has tapped into the knowledge of God’s word, and will be checking out if he has more such revelation.
This video is great, if he can just realize all these folks who are living in sin and believed, will not be in the kingdom (having read the very scriptures saying so) still may be saved, having read that scripture as well, especially discussing the one Paul had loosed to have his flesh destroyed but his spirit saved.
I discuss the difference between Believing and being Born Again here:
I also discuss the Gospel of Salvation vs the Gospel of the Kingdom here:
I discuss the unrepentant Believers here:
I discuss how they will be Saved, but Judged, and not allowed in the Kingdom here:
Of coarse the discussion breaches the topic, OSAS, “Once Saved Always Saved”, and thus the great debate is handled wrongly on both sides. These people will be saved, but not allowed in the Kingdom. However I do believe some, very few, will give up their salvation. I don’t like to say “lost their salvation”, because it was not through deception, or a mistake, or even by immaturity. They will know what they have done, understood it, and chose sin instead of God. No new believer can do this. No uneducated christian can do this. Only those taught in God’s ways, and have walked in the gifts of God can do this. And I discuss that subject here:
I found a Planet X channel, I think, as I still have to investigate further, that I can agree with. Check out this video…
I believe I have been instructed to list the many things the Lord has done for me.
First and foremost, Jesus died on the cross for me. But not just me, for all of us, and yes specifically for me, and each of you!
Gal 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ, and I live; yet no longer I, but Christ lives in me. And that life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith toward the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself on my behalf.
An early memory, probably around kindergarten, I was rock climbing with my dad. I remember we were walking on a narrow ledge above a very steep cliff over a strong river rapids, (my dad tells me that it wasn’t a complete drop off, there was some slope, my memory of it is almost as a drop-off). I slipped and slid down the steep slope. As I fell, my hands went up, and as they did, I grabbed a small branch or stem of a bush or tree as I fell by it. I held on to it with both hands. My dad reached down and grabbed me just as the branch snapped. I remember looking down to see the branch fall down to the river.
Many years later as a young adult, I left the Air Force to become a Catholic monk.
When I got out of the military, I stayed with my dad and stepmom, until I found a monastery. One day while there, i got extremely sick, something was wrong with my stomach. Stomach aches had always been the worst pains in my life. After 2 days and nights, the pain became unbearable. On the 2nd night of no sleep, I decided to pray for help.
I prayed something like this:
“Dear God, please help me, this pain is so bad I would rather die. Please take this pain away. I will do anything you want, if you take away this pain. Lord, I prefer death, over this pain, if healing is not available.”
Please understand, I had never heard of healing, never seen it either. In short, I cried out to God in pain, not faith, but with hope, and in earnestness.
Praise God for God! He heard me! After praying, I felt led to go read a Catholic Church bulletin that was sitting in my room. I rarely, if ever, had read those things, and usually they would get tossed in the garbage.
In it, it said, something to the effect of: Catholic Charismatic Conference, place —-, time —-, and so on.
Please understand, I had never ever, heard of the Charismatic movement except once, while in the military, at a Catholic Prayer group or study, someone mentioned that there was a Charismatic Prayer group in town. I simply asked “what is that?” And I was told that they prayed strongly or differently or something like that. This was the only knowledge I had of the charismatic movement
Anyway, I prayed to God, “If you want me to go to this; if it is your will, I will go. Please, just take away the pain.”
Within a few minutes. The pain was gone.
That Friday night, I went to the conference. There, I saw some acquaintances of a friend of mine. My friend had been trying to get me to renounce Catholicism, and introduced me to these folks.
At the conference, I met up with the man whose acquaintance I had met. He decided to take some conference classes with me. One class we went to, was called: The Gifts of the Holy Spirit. Or something like that.
In this class, the teacher read a bunch of scriptures that seemed gibberish to me. He just read a list of verses without explaining them. None of them in any way enlightened me, or explained what was going on. I don’t remember any of them. After this, he asked for the raising of hands of those who wanted the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. I raised my hand, and then left it up for a question, which was, “What is the Baptism of the Holy Spirit?”. He answered with, “It’s when you ask the Holy Spirit to be in your life.”.
Now, I had been taught as a Catholic, that you received the Holy Spirit at confirmation. (Remember, this IS a Catholic Charismatic Conference.) So when he gathered the dozen or so who raised their hands to receive this, I declined.
He then asked the rest of us, “How many of you, who have the Holy Spirit, would like a gift of the Holy Spirit.” I raised my hands with about a dozen others. They all wanted the gift of tongues. I asked for the gift of prophecy, because I had enjoyed reading about the Old Testament prophets. Please note, I had no inkling what was going on, I had never seen any of these gifts in operation, had no clue if prophecy was available, in fact if asked, I would have said it wasn’t on the earth anymore. Although I had no direct teaching saying either way. I was just being earnest in my limited faith. The prophets in the Bible had always fascinated me, and so that was the only gift that popped into my mind.
Now, I had never heard of tongues, nor had heard them. Only from Lutheran Sunday School; that at the time of Pentecost, the Holy Spirit came upon the apostles and tongues of fire were on their heads, and then foreign people heard them speak in their native languages. That was the only incident of tongues I had ever knew of. No one had ever shown me other tongues in the Bible, nor had anyone ever told me about them.
Needless to say, I had no idea what these dozen or so people wanted, nor what it meant. I was the only one to ask for something different, the gift of prophecy. Did I think it possible? I did not consider it possible or not. I was simply honestly answering the questions with the situation put before me, trying to obey and find what God had for me.
The teacher then took us aside, into another corner. Then he asked the remaining people to pray for these 2 groups when the time came. One group wanted the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, the other group, which I was in, wanted a gift of the Holy Spirit. Of which everyone asked for tongues except me.
He then proceeded to give a small instruction in the receiving of tongues. He said he would pray for us and lay his hands on us. He then instructed us saying: that after he would lay hands on us, we may feel in our spirit the Holy Spirit moving and we would need to open our mouth and speak as the Holy Spirit would guide or lead us to.
After this, having finished instructing us, and being moved by God, he came straight to me, purposefully, and laid hands on me. Upon doing so, enormous amounts of power and energy came through him into me. He said to me, “Let it out, let it out.” I opened my mouth, and let this power within me, manifest in language through my voice. I began to shout in an unknown language, the power in my body was enormous. After a minute or so, he proceeded to pray for others. I, on the other hand, was completely baffled by what was happening within me. In a couple minutes, I toned down my volume, but it was difficult, due to the enormous energy in me, and the lack of spiritual discipline, and in ignorance of the situation. I continued to speak in other tongues, but wondered in English, “What is this, how can I be thinking in English, trying to understand what this power is and yet be speaking in another language.” (The answer is found in 1 Corinthians 14:14). At the time I did not understand. When he was done praying for everyone, I could only see 1 person who may have been speaking in tongues besides me. This person appeared mentally or possibly verbally handicapped. So I was uncertain to their true state.
The teacher, told me to go home and practice tongues. I did not learn what happened to me, nor did I understand, nor was I taught. Today, however, I can tell you, I was baptized in the Holy Spirit.
Well, I went home that day. At home, I could not utter another phrase in tongues, no matter how hard I tried. Somehow, it just couldn’t or wouldn’t manifest. I began my preparations for my trip to Colorado to the monastery.
I arrived at the monastery and I loved it. It was everything I thought, I was looking for. It was very ascetic. Well, everything seemed wonderful, and I was nearly convinced that this would be my life. But, I wanted to pray and ask God for final confirmation for His will in my life. I wanted obedience to Him above all else, in my life.
I decided to do this at the top of a mountain. So I began my climb up a mountain to pray. About halfway up, I experienced something utterly fantastic and unknown to me. It was the presence of God ( I am not talking about sacraments).
As a Lutheran and Catholic, I had believed that the presence of God could not be felt on the Earth anymore. I cannot say if this was taught to me, or if it was implied, or if I was in error through ignorance. Nonetheless, I was COMPLETELY surprised. You must understand all my thinking and observing this Presence, and the surprise happened very quickly. My years of religious training and experience, whether accurate or not, had not prepared me for this. A lot went through my mind at this time. It was not like the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, nor like the manifestation of tongues. Yes, there was power, but not a channeled power to be manifested in some gift. It was God Himself present. Not visually, neither was He present to my natural ears. I could not sense Him with eyes or ears, nor with smell or taste. But I sensed Him with touch. I did not bump into Him. I felt a tangible presence in a force. I cannot explain God’s presence to those who have never experienced it. It is incomprehensible. It’s like walking into a living wall of light, without seeing it. This is figurative, I felt no “wall” or obstruction, I felt a PRESENCE. The PRESENCE was immense, unmeasurably immense. I felt drawn to the PRESENCE, it was drawing me quietly and respectfully of my will. But drawing me nonetheless. It had the “air” of solving all my questions to the direction of my life. This “it” and “PRESENCE” was God. When it is experienced, it is understood completely, unless one chooses to lie to himself and denounce God in His face.
Anyway, I was dumbfounded. I was unprepared. I could sense His presence was emanating from further up the mountain, somewhere near the top, but I was only halfway there. The only thing I could think of to do, that seemed appropriate, was to take off my shoes and socks and continue on barefoot. This is what Moses was commanded to do by God when he met God on a mountain.
Onward I went, barefoot until near the top, I fell on my knees when I reached the peak of the presence of God. There, I learned that God did not want me to be a monk, that He wanted me to move to a specific city in Wisconsin (here unnamed). I left the mountain speaking and singing in tongues. I have been able to pray in tongues, at will, ever since.
A few months after this incident God called me to go to a specific Bible school but I was too intimated to tell my new christian friends. So didn’t listen to God’s will. In stead I sinned and decided to rejoin the military. But this time the Navy. God tried to stop me, the Air Force was very limited in their recruitment and had no positions in my field, so I went to the Navy. Now I was in real disobedience, for God had tried to stop me by making the Air Force unavailable.
Before, swearing into the Navy, I went back to Wisconsin. While in Wisconsin, I came to my senses and realized I was in sin. I decided to not go in. However, the recruiters kept giving me a hard time. They faked a phone call from a high ranking officer and said I would go to jail if I didn’t go. I became intimidated by them, and by one of my parents, and through the advice of a pastor, whom said that I shouldn’t have any skeletons in my closet. So I decided to go.
But then, I did go and swear in. I hoped to get out quickly, because I knew that you could leave the military in the first 180 days without any penalty, except perhaps bad words tossed at you.
I was persuaded to “rough it out”, to wait and see. How foolish I was, because, while there, the instructors knew about the 180 day discharge, but by then I had given in.
I continued to study the Bible and listened to Bible teachings that taught me God’s ways. I was stationed on an aircraft carrier in Japan. It was this next voyage that I became determined to leave the Navy.
It was during this cruise that I made known to my superiors that I wanted out. They however, were ignorant of the 180 day discharge or lied about it. They gave me the freedom to find it in their books. I could not find it though, and they mocked me continually. When we finished that cruise. I stayed in Japan about a month. It was the following cruise that became utter torture for me.
We left on a cruise that lasted 30 days without stopping at any port. The immorality on the ship became terrible. I soon spent almost all my time doing just the basics. The relief I found was in listening to the Bible on tape or Christian music while I fell asleep. I soon became ill. I believed that I was dying because of my disobedience to God.
I went to see the ship doctor and he found that I was dehydrated. He said that I needed to drink 8 glasses a water a day. I told him that I had been drinking about 4. He said, that although 4 was not enough for me, but that it would not have caused dehydration. He was greatly troubled and astonished that I would be so dehydrated when I had been drinking 4 glasses of water a day. They had to intravenously feed me almost 2 quarts of water.
When we finally got to port, I was so relieved. They began to prepare for the next cruise in which they would go to Korea and cross the equator or some such other line. At this crossing, they would perform occultic naval rituals upon those whom had never crossed the line. I was determined to do all I could, not to go on that cruise, and be released from the military.
Praise the Almighty! For my superiors had decided to leave me behind for Shore Patrol Duty. Well, it was tolerable and easy work. But I wanted God’s will, to get out of the military and go to Texas and go to the Bible school.
Something very unusual happened after about 3 weeks, when the ship left without me. To this day I am uncertain whether it was God or not, but at the time, I believed it was. I had this dream.
In the dream, I went to the church in Texas, while there, the minister whose tapes I had been listening to; cast 2 demons out of me. He was dressed in some robe with a medallion around his neck.
I awoke to a knock at my door. I was told by some guy in the dorm, that the chaplain was on the phone for me. I went to the phone and the chaplain said that I had a Red Cross message stating that my grandfather had died. I told him that I would come and see him immediately.
I got dressed and wondered about my dream and this message, and instantly concluded that this would be my way home. And once in the U.S. I could get the military officials there to help me get a discharge.
At the chaplain’s office, I told him that I would like to take leave to go home for the funeral of my grandfather. He understood and said he would help. I needed to get the signature of all my superiors. I proceeded to get these signatures, and the first 3 agreed. I prayed and thanked God. I went to my highest superior to get his signature. He said that a grandfather was too far removed in family relationships to allow me to take leave.
I walked out of there utterly broken, but out of this, I made a decision, at the time I believed it was God. I decided I would leave without permission.
I immediately packed my things and went to the Tokyo airport. I had no problems getting there. At the Airport, I got a ticket to Los Angeles. In Los Angeles, I bought a ticket to the nearest city to the Church in Texas.
I arrived in the city of this church and made contact with them. They made arrangements for me to stay with some folks who attended the church until I could get my own place or share a place with someone else.
The man who had started the church, was not at the 1st service I went to, but was at the 2nd one. The service was an African wedding. He wore an African style robe and had an African medallion, just like in my dream. Here he was wearing exactly what I saw him wearing in my dream, the very 1st time I saw him. This church is not a “sacramental” church or like other churches wear the ministers wear robes. The ministers normally wear regular civilian clothes, often suits.
After 2 weeks, I could see that the land was not open for me. I couldn’t find a job. It seemed my promised land was not being opened by God. I decided to go back to Wisconsin and find out what it was God wanted me to do.
Once in Wisconsin, I contacted the friends I had made there. I however, kept a low profile, and did not contact my family.
When I told my friends where I was in Texas, they were highly interested. They believed that it was time for them to move and they had a couple of places in mind, one of which was this church. It was believed that this was an indication of direction for them. I made an arrangement with them. I would work and hand over my income to them, and they in turn, would house and feed me. We would move back to Texas together, and once there, they would help me to go to Bible School.
Summer went by quickly, and we earned enough money to move to Texas. The local pastor had a prophetic word for me before we left. He said that there was something I would have to do in Texas that I was unwilling to do at the time.
The move went well. Within two weeks, they found a house and van, and the husband of the family had found a job. I however, was still unsuccessful in finding a place in the land.
After two weeks, the elders of the church found that I was “AWOL” and called me into the office with the man who had been letting me stay with them. I was told with scripture that I had to turn myself into the authorities. I had to fulfill all righteousness to be a true disciple of the Lord. I agreed quickly upon hearing from the Word of God. I was told that I had a week to prepare. I concluded that it was this that had kept the doors closed to me in the land. So I wanted to get things right as quickly as possible.
I turned myself in to the local recruiter. I had been gone for about 4 months. The military sent me to a base in Texas to get a court martial. On the way there and while there, I was treated like and called a traitor. But I abided it all.
While in Texas, my dad found me. He talked with my lawyer, and the lawyer told him that the military would probably put me in prison and throw away the key. However, this was not told to me (not until much later). I was told that I would be probably found guilty and the military would slap my hands and let me go. They probably would take all my rank away and give me some punitive discharge or something to that effect.
When the trial came, the judge asked me my plea and story. I told him that I was not guilty because I fled believing that my life was in danger. He asked, if I had any evidence of that. I told him my reasons concerning my faith and that I had also became dehydrated. He was surprised at this and called for my medical records. It was there as I had described.
Praise the Almighty King and Judge! Because after a short recess the judge came back and found me not guilty. There is some code or law that protects military personnel from undue judgments if they flea for self preservation.
My lawyer further told me that this case was remarkable and probably historical. That a christian would win his case against the military. He also said that if the media had known, it would have been national news. However, it was not published or known. My lawyer was an assigned military lawyer.
What happened next was the hand of God. It was His way of saying, “You may be forgiven, but your disobedience and actions bring results based upon spiritual laws.” This next incident also was God’s way of saying, “Ok, you chose man and self over Me. Now will you stand for Me, when it is not so easy, and when YOU KNOW what to do?!”
The military did not let me go. Instead they sent me to Virginia, where I was to board a modern aircraft carrier that was about to go to the Gulf War one. I had learned that running away was not the answer. And I knew that God wanted me to stand for Him and that I was to go before my superiors, refuse to participate in the continuance of my military service, without running, and willing to accept any punishment they would give me for disobeying orders. I was to accept that punishment; because disobeying man was the lesser crime than the sin of disobeying God. Even if the crime was prison or death.
I did not make any of these decisions based upon the war, nor for fear of being in it. But only for the reasons stated earlier: fear of God.
When I got to Virginia and found out about my assignment, I had determined to follow God. I went to my supervisor and told him that I refused to board the ship, and wanted out of the Navy. I told him that I would not run and that I had just been found not guilty in a court martial. He was not upset but was surprised. He took me to his supervisor, and all the way up to some high ranking officer. This officer could not believe my story and called the base of my court martial to confirm it. He was astonished to learn the truth.
They were all baffled with this situation. Here I was, submitting to them, but refusing to participate in any military work that would further my stay in the military. In the end, they used the command of an officer to verbally command me onto the ship. I refused.
The ship was soon prepared to leave. Everything was loaded. I was brought to the office of my commander. There, he told me everyone was aboard except those of us in his office. He asked me and commanded me to go aboard. It got real intense. He threatened me with desertion during wartime or some such thing. It was here that I remember standing up for God before men, and said something like this::
“I do not or will not desert. I will not run. But I refuse to be a part of any military operation that continues my military service.”
He then said that I could be punished with death or imprisoned with only bread and water because we were at war. Then I replied, “I am willing to be punished for any supposed offense, real or not, because I disobeyed God for coming into the military, and must now leave it, but legally, without running. I am ready to receive a punitive discharge, loss of rank, imprisonment, rations of bread or water, or even death; to obey my God and take that which I deserve for disobeying Him as my consequence.”
I think he asked, “Do you do this because you hate me?” I suppose he was in trouble himself because of my actions, or was made to look bad, but I responded, “Sir, I love you, and will pray for you, if you will allow I will hug you.” I got up as if to hug him. He got angry then, told me to be sit down and be quiet. This guy was absolutely angry. He ordered me stay in his office, and they all left to board the ship.
I must have been there 30 minutes, 90 minutes or possibly more while waiting. My senses were so keyed up I am uncertain how long it was. I waited alone, in an office, in a hanger, that was empty of man or equipment. Finally some SP’s came (security patrol). I don’t know if they were sent or if they were doing their rounds when they found me. They took me to I what I think was Base Operations. Where the real Big Boys were. There I waited, until some officers called me into their office. These guys were very high ranking officials. They demanded to know my story and I told them. The highest officer said that they would load me on a helicopter and fly me onto the ship, because the ship had already left. He said that they would send a helicopter just because of me. That I could not get out of going to war. He was quite upset, and wanted to force me on. I told them that I had been ordered aboard several times, and that if they wanted to, they could manually carry me aboard, but I would refuse to walk on or off the helicopter or onto the ship. They were quiet after that. The high ranking officer stormed off.
In the end they couldn’t or didn’t do anything to send me onto the ship. I got sent to the barracks where the enlisted guys waited to leave the military and also where the less offensive law breakers waited for court martial or Captain’s Mast.
A Captain’s Mast was offered to me and I accepted it. While waiting for the Captain’s Mast, I was put in the same kind of barracks I was in for my court martial.
The day came of my Captain’s Mast. He was polite, to the point, and professional. I gave my story, he asked questions, one of which was if I was a christian. He asked about my feelings about the war, and I told him war had nothing to do with my decisions or actions. His judgment was: loss of one rank, 30 days in detention with extra duties, and an Other than Honorable Discharge. This is an administrative discharge, not a punitive discharge. Where no benefits are given but neither are there any penalties with your release. I found out later, the officer was a christian.
I did my 30 day’s detention and was soon released from the military.
I moved to Texas, to the church where God told me to go to Bible school. I found a job and a place to rent very quickly. The land had opened for me.
I went to Bible school for 2 years, but then disobeyed God again, this time I stayed in Texas, after Bible school instead of moving back to Wisconsin.
I loved the church very much, but I never thought it was perfect. But to this day, I believe, it is the most Biblical church I have ever seen, heard of, or experienced in any way. However it did fall into a cult in my last days there.
One teaching they have, called “Kisser/Cleaver”, is to teach people to stay there. It teaches to become “planted” in the land. Many folks have gone there for school and left. Maybe this was their way to try and keep some, or perhaps they truly believed every student belonged there to stay. But for whatever reason they had for this teaching, they caught me with it, and I disobeyed God yet again. I decided to plant myself there. I had become a man-pleaser yet one more time.
Despite my missing God, I learned a lot there and gained a good reputation and respect from the people and the elders. Most importantly I learned much of God’s ways and the gifts He had given me, and a beginning of how to use them. I learned a great many of Biblical Doctrines and theologies, most of which I believe to be very accurate. Many of which are found on my website. To this day I agree with much of what they taught.
After about 3 years there, I began “dating” a young lady from the church. And I believed it was to lead to marriage. The problem began at this point. The church would not marry anyone unless there was a prophecy or a word from God in the church or to one of the elders, stating that the marriage was from God. It had to be VERY dynamic. Because of this, there were few marriages at the church. And so, they would not marry us. They believed it was not of God, and that I was much more mature spiritually than her.
What this did for me, was cause me to meet with the elders often, I wanted dearly to please them and God. What happened then was these 2 things began to separate. I began to see that God’s will or way was not the elders way or will in my life. What they finally came to say was, “We know it’s not God’s will for you to marry. We also know that you are missing God somewhere in your life and we don’t know where.”
This angered me, I was torn whether or not if it was God’s will, but was upset that they wouldn’t tell me where I was missing God. God showed them that I was missing Him, but they couldn’t discern what. Of coarse not, because all of us involved thought it was God’s will for me to be there and it wasn’t. Yes God wanted me there for school. 2 years of school would have been fine, but I had stayed 2 more years after the first 2 years of school.
Because I wasn’t sure of God’s will in the marriage, I didn’t marry her, and I had begun to lose her. Which frustrated me emotionally. She stopped seeing me regularly, we were forbidden by the church to see each other anyway.
But through this God was working in me His will. That is, through trials, we begin to see the sins in our life, so that we can repent of them. We also begin to see what it is God wants us to do. For indeed I had missed God, he wanted me in Wisconsin. Although they would never say it, nor did I acknowledge it until much later.
Several spiritual things happened during this time.
During this time, the church had a REALLY big change. The minister who had started the church had found some older men of God, and he was submitting to them and his personal ministry to them. Since the church was nondenominational, he believed he needed personal accountability. This was for him, not the church, they were not over the church in any way. Anyway, it was 1 older man in particular and 2 others that ministered with him. They did minister to our church but were not involved in the church governments. The 3 men came to minister to the congregation. They were to give a word from God to each person at a service, through prophecy or other gifts.
This is the word that was given to me from one of those men:
God sees you and your situation. He is happy with you. And He says that you are NOT squandering YOUR inheritance. And He says that He will keep your relationships.
The elders were beginning at this time to talk about my situation in front of the church and to certain groups within the church. I was being condemned as being in sin for pursuing this girl or rebellion against them. I was condemned for squandering my spiritual inheritance in the church.
The night that I got the word from God through that minister, I had a dream:
In the dream, a young and short mafia guy came to me. He started threatening me, saying that the mafia was going to have me killed, and he might be the one to do it. He was small but I sensed a fear trying to have power over me, although it did NOT move me, except in anger. In the dream I knew that this was a demon. I grabbed him and swung him around and said “I am not afraid of you, they can’t kill me and neither can you, I command you to leave me in Jesus name.”
I woke up instantly and sensed the same exact fear trying to permeate my soul in my room. There was a 3 dimensional black humanoid next to my bed about 3 feet tall. I knew it was a demon, and I took the same stance. I said, “I command you to leave in Jesus name.” The demon walked through the wall under my Air Conditioner and left the apartment. I prayed in tongues and in English for awhile after that.
It was shortly after this, a couple weeks or so, that the Lord told me that He would or had removed the church’s authority from me. It was only 2 days after that He told me to leave and go to Wisconsin.
The church fell into cult activities and removed all the older ministers who sought to cover them. I got married to another woman and had 2 sons.
My oldest son, when he was 16, collapsed in the bathroom one morning while getting ready for school. By the time I unlocked the door and got in there it was probably over 3 minutes and his heart had stopped, so we called 911. It was about 8 minutes later when they arrived. And it was probably over 5 minutes after that when he was resuscitated.
Statistics and study have determined that every minute without a heartbeat is a 10 percent chance of not coming back. You do the math, on my son’s chances of coming back. The difference in my son’s case? I prayed in tongues when the rescue squad was there working on him.
Yes I believe in the raising of the dead and other miracles. I have seen them, and been on both ends. Many not listed in this testimony.
These are the major things God has done in my life. Seek God, and He will do the same for you!